Joe,
I am taking from both your age and what you've said that you're either a Reservist and/or Guardsman. My hat goes off to you - not many your age are willing to volunteer to do anything, much less put your life on the line for your family, community, and country if need be.
Second, I've been an 11B (Infantryman, specifically, light infantryman). Actually, I've been an 11A, Infantry Officer, with a 3X, 5P, and 5W identifier (Bradley Infantry Fighting Vehicle Commander, Parachutist, and Jumpmaster respectfully). I've commanded a company in the 82nd Airborne, a platoon in combat with the 1st Cavalry Division, and numerous Psychological Operations units. I hold the Bronze Star and Combat Infantryman's Badge amongst the things our nation has seen fit to give me, and I'm humbly grateful for them. Trust me, I'm no hero - too many others have done and given far too much more for me to ever deign to stake claim to that title.
I can empathize with your desire for action -it is not unusual in young men, nor in those who have not experienced combat. Most folks who have been there, regardless of conflict, will tell you that combat is primarily 90% utter boredom mixed with about 10% sheer terror. From my experience, they are correct.
It is not fun. It is not clean. It is the most disgusting thing you will ever experience. You will see friends ripped apart unmercifully; everything will appear black and ugly; you will witness the most amazing acts of both heroism and barbarism; you will do things you never thought you could or would want to do; you will be scared XXitless; others will be scared XXitless too, on both sides. In the end, you will hope you make it to see the next day. Your whole life will be just that; day to day.
I won't dissuade you. It didn't work on me either. All I will tell you is that it is not like you think it is, regardless of what you see on TV. It is dirty, messy, smelly, hot, painful, and ultimately, the most contradicting thing you can participate in as a human being.
If you seek advice, here it is - be careful what you wish for. You just might get it.
My two cents,
Alan J. Dover
Major, U.S. Army
Veteran, Operation Desert Shield-Desert Storm
A Company, 1st Bn, 5th United States Cavalry
1990-1991
Veteran, Operation Enduring Freedom (Afghanistan)
2001
Veteran, Operation Iraqi Freedom, 2005-2006
(Message edited by ajdover on February 28, 2007)
(Message edited by ajdover on February 28, 2007)