Thank you for sharing, Jimmy.
Your courage in admitting your problem makes it easier to deal with the guilt and shame of having spent the 1st quarter of 1980 doing sound, pyro, and follow-spot for "Holidaze, Featuring Doc & Linda Holiday", playing 6 sets a night, 6 nights a week on the Midwest hotel lounge circuit; Fri & Sat the 5th & 6th sets being a "Las Vegas-Style Floor Show" (meaning Doc wore a chartreuse-and-orange sequined jumpsuit & Linda wore a matching do-me dress, and did the pyro-and-spot part of the job)..... Yeah, it was a crappy gig - but it was a gig.
We all have skeletons.........
Peter