Slawie,
Man, I wish you the best possible.
I don't know if it helps, but I once heard a saying that kept me going on several occasions: If one thing goes, it's because a better one is to come.
These are probably going to be hard times, but I'm sure you can overcome it.
Because in the end, it is just a job. One of the hundred chapters of life, and now it's time to start a new one. Remember to keep living, don't let it hold you back.
I'm really hoping the best for you!
Greg